Well...

I assume the herbs are working pretty well. No BFP yet, bit AF did show up andxhas been going 7 days straight. Just really light in colour. Not sure what's up with that. I've heard that implantation bleeding is weird too and can be mistaken for AF. Now, imnot getting my hopes up, but since this AF was so weird, I may still test in a week just to be sure. I'm looking for a BFN, but it's best to know for sure as soon as possible. If these herbs keep working, I may buy some ovulation prediction sticks and start charting. Maybe. I've been taking 1600mg of Vitex and 540mg of Black Cohosh.

I do get discouraged sometimes and it gets real heavy. Women know what I mean about this. You know your hubby/SO loves you and wants the baby just as much as you do, but he's not feeling the same stuff. Like in my case, our baby won't be my hubby's first kid, so it's all new to me, but to him it's old hat so to speak. So he's not feeling all this stuff for the first time. And his first kid was not and didn't have to be planned out like thus one. His exwife was pretty much regular and normal. Already has 2 kids before hand. So there were no temper tantrums and crying spells and depression and "What's wrong with me? Why am I being punished like this" episodes. I suppose we're in different places in our lives and we think 100% different. So I kinda feel all alone in the whole emotional aspect of ttc. Bit I have groups and forums. Plus my blog, so I'll be fine I guess.

Well that's all for today's rant.


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Jen