Wednesday, December 2, 2009

This is it!!

After a very difficult BFN last month, I decided to just go for treatment and just get the pills. Get the Clomid and Provera and go from there. I wanted it to be natural from beginning to end, but I'm going to have to take a medical detour. I'm not getting any younger and this isn't going to get any easier.

So here I am.. Waiting to start fertility treatments. Dec 16 or 22 depending which appointment is available. Shockingly, DH is happy about it. Not sure if je really is happy or if he's just glad I'm doing something "normal". Not all that herbal "crap" I tend to like to do. I love doing things herbally and with meditation. But I'm not opposed to western medicine. Just western attitudes. But I'll take the western medicine and still burn my incense and meditate. Theres no law against it.

The hard thing I have to do though is quit smoking. I am so not ready for that!! LoL! But it must b done. I've decided to quit when I start taking the pills. Some of it is due to that new commercial has where the woman gets a BFP and there's smoke around her head and then it was around her baby's head. The rest is due to the fact that I'm just sick of smoking but the addiction keeps me lighting up. The patch wouldn't do me much good cause a good portion of my addiction is just the habit of smoking and you can't smoke a patch or gum. So those aids won't help much. I'd benefit more from support groups, journaling,and blogging. Not to mention twittering. DH isn't the "support" type and his "encouragement" is usually so frank it comes across kinda mean. So that's not gonna help. Luckily my iPhone is always with me and I usually always have a some Internet connection, so I'll be able to blog or Twitter. I should be ok. Though it will still be hard, I have some time, as fertility treatments rarely work immediately. I think the sooner that ball gets rolling the better. Don't wanna have a smokey baby. :p

well I guess that's pretty much it for now. Good thing is I'm more focused on the baby now- or rather, I'm focused again on it. :)

More as it becomes available.


1 comment:

  1. Jen - I just wanted to say good luck stopping smoking. I smoked for about 15 years but I quit nearly 10 years ago. I was hands-down the hardest thing I've ever done in my life. I took Zyban for one month and maybe it helped a little, but it was so damned expensive that I figured I could smoke crack for the money I was paying for the stupid Zyban, so I quit taking it after a month. The best advice I can give you is to expect misery and make a commitment to live through it. I used to want to smoke so bad I'd just cry and cry ha ha. BUT, it DOES get better. I'd say the first 2 months were the absolute worst. And even though it got better after that, I still wanted to smoke 2 years later. Now, I never think about it except when I see people standing out in the cold smoking - I just say a quick prayer thanking God for helping me quit.

    Good luck!

    ps you may want to go ahead and quit now. If you are taking Clomid, it can cause mood stuff and I'd imagine you may REALLY want to smoke simply due to the side-effects of the meds.


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